This will be another look into what my life looks like now. What my routine is like now and all that jazz.
Let us begin. As you may have already noticed it is Christmas, which means I am in Christmas vacation as most other kids these days. I passed my English class with a big A! However, that was kind of a no-brainier for me. It was challenging, but I passed my ASL 2 class with a good A too. ^_^ On day very first day of my ASL 2 class, my teacher signed the entire class, I was freaking out. Most of what he was signing looked like random gestures in my opinion. But that is only because I hadn't learned those signs yet. However, I didn't quit. I stuck to my studies and I reaped the benefits. Since, I am not doing school at this moment I am not going to the gym because Miami Dade is closed for the holidays. So, for my source of exercising I am playing tennis! My twin sister and me deeply enjoy tennis. Her favorite player is Roger Federer. My favorite player is Rafael Nadal. But I think my sister is starting to become a Djokovic fan. He's okay.
In fact, I am going to play tennis today!
When school starts again (the 4th of Jan) I am totally going to sign for the gym in Miami Dade. Just like I did in the Fall semester. It's going to be soooo much fun!! I love working out! Love it! I love the gym :) Some people don't. Some people prefer playing sports and that's good. It's matter of opinion.
I have already decided. That no matter what going to the gym and working out will always always be part of my daily routine! But you already know that I am a health nut and proud of it!
My life now is very relaxed, I mean I'm not doing any school work. Next year, I plan to do a 8k that's 5 miles. 2 more miles than my regular 5k races. But I am determine, so that's what I am going to do. There is nothing really major going on in my life at the moment, but I am please to report that all is good.
I <3 GOD!!!
Monday, December 26, 2011
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
when I left (next part)
I remember, that while I was secretly exercising, my parents were growing suspicious. I knew I had to be more discreet, but with every opportunity I had to myself I just had to workout. I was falling back into the same hole, but I (along with all anorexics) denied the facts. I was still keeping my diet, however I did tried to find ways to cheat the diet. That didn't really work out. One day, I went to the hospital and my doctor asked me if was exercising. I said no, I lied right through my teeth. The doctor still took my word for it. Inside, I was so relieved that no one suspected anything, but keeping up with the lies was becoming such a burden for me. On the same appointment, the doctor told my mom to buy drinking supplements. You know brands like, Boost and Ensure. My doctor said this because I needed to gain weight. I instantly thought to myself, "I'm going to have to exercise more if I want to maintain my weight." I hated the fact that my mother actually bought some supplement drinks, I hated the fact that I had to take them. The only thing I could was workout more to balance it out.
The more I exercised the more and more I felt that parents one way or another would eventually discover the truth. I tried not to think like that. I think, in the mist of all of that, I might have even felt a little proud that I was keeping a secret like that from my parents. However, one night my family and me were invited to a BBQ and all the kids were playing sports, I wanted to play with them so badly. And so I did. I didn't wait to ask my parents. I didn't care what would they say to me if I played with kids or not. I wanted to do what I wanted. Recall that my parents didn't know that I was secretly working out , so they let my played with the kids. I felt so free and all so happy, but I knew that I was lying....again. We went home and I don't know how the subject came to be, but all of a sudden my secret came spilling out. I was sobbing immensely. I have no idea what my parents were thinking. That night I confessed my secret work outs. My mom asked me how could I have been working out if she never suspected anything. "In the bathroom!" I cried. I don't think she could believe what was I saying because all she said was, "What?" perhaps in shock. I cried and cried. That night was terrible. I felt soooooo bad and sooooo scared. Why did I feel scared? Because I knew that after that night my parents would make sure that I gain weight.
I had another doctor appointment in like three days. Those 72 hours were like hell. I had to eat twice as much as my diet recommended and this time the mom made sure I ate. Those three days I didn't work out at all. Terrible, terrible! I felt like was being punished with every passing minute. When the appointment finally came, I gained weight. I didn't even wanted to think about it. The doctors were pleased and so was my mother. I was not, but then the doctor told me that I could now exercise. I remember saying to myself, "It's about freaking time!!" Needless to say I was angry.
Let's carry this on in the next blog ^_^ I <3 God!
Merry Christmas.
The more I exercised the more and more I felt that parents one way or another would eventually discover the truth. I tried not to think like that. I think, in the mist of all of that, I might have even felt a little proud that I was keeping a secret like that from my parents. However, one night my family and me were invited to a BBQ and all the kids were playing sports, I wanted to play with them so badly. And so I did. I didn't wait to ask my parents. I didn't care what would they say to me if I played with kids or not. I wanted to do what I wanted. Recall that my parents didn't know that I was secretly working out , so they let my played with the kids. I felt so free and all so happy, but I knew that I was lying....again. We went home and I don't know how the subject came to be, but all of a sudden my secret came spilling out. I was sobbing immensely. I have no idea what my parents were thinking. That night I confessed my secret work outs. My mom asked me how could I have been working out if she never suspected anything. "In the bathroom!" I cried. I don't think she could believe what was I saying because all she said was, "What?" perhaps in shock. I cried and cried. That night was terrible. I felt soooooo bad and sooooo scared. Why did I feel scared? Because I knew that after that night my parents would make sure that I gain weight.
I had another doctor appointment in like three days. Those 72 hours were like hell. I had to eat twice as much as my diet recommended and this time the mom made sure I ate. Those three days I didn't work out at all. Terrible, terrible! I felt like was being punished with every passing minute. When the appointment finally came, I gained weight. I didn't even wanted to think about it. The doctors were pleased and so was my mother. I was not, but then the doctor told me that I could now exercise. I remember saying to myself, "It's about freaking time!!" Needless to say I was angry.
Let's carry this on in the next blog ^_^ I <3 God!
Merry Christmas.
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Christmas
It has come to my recent knowledge that it's Christmas! And I have no pictures of Christmas or the good old Christmas spirit. Well, I am about to change all that by posting two pictures that I made using: http://www.maplesimulator.com/ (awesome website)
enjoy. ^_^
yea, the first one I made I think last, but the second one I made like two days ago.
Have a Merry Christmas!!
enjoy. ^_^
Have a Merry Christmas!!
Sunday, December 4, 2011
when I left...(who cares which part)
Okay! My last blog, which was in November (my apologies) was mainly about how my sister call me and told me that she signed me up for 48 hours. It's some kind of retreat way off in quite place where you can just pour your heart out to God. It was like a two hour drive or more from my house. Good news, I did go to the retreat and I did pour out my heart to God! I must confess, though I didn't really think God would help me out in that kind of situation, but he did. God always comes through in the end. ^_^
I forgot when exactly was the retreat I think maybe somewhere around February of 2010. While in the retreat, I remember it was there that I realized just how many true friends I had. Even with people, who I barely spoke with, they were praying for me. What I took from that experience was that I should never take friends for granted.
Right when I left the hospital, like in the same night, my family decided to over a friend's house to surprise them with me leaving the hospital. They told me to wait in the car while they went inside the house. The plan was that my farther would tell them that I was still in the hospital, then I would walk in the house and, well, surprise them! My twin sister went to use the bathroom, when I walked in the house. When they so me they thought I was Rebecca my twin sister. But then, all of a sudden my twin sister came behind me and hugged me, I hugged her back too. Instantly, they started freaking out. Big smiles and all :)
The hospital gave me a diet that I had to follow cause I still needed to gain a bit more weight. Needless to say I hated the diet. I felt so stuffed with food all the time. I tried not to make a big deal about it. I also didn't was to get all rebellious because then I would probably had to go back to the hospital. So I stuck to the diet. During this time I wasn't allowed to exercise, which was terrible! (I love exercising! ^_^ It makes me feel happy and studies have shown that it helps get rid of stress.)
I didn't want to gain anymore weight. So, I chose to exercise secretly. My parents didn't know about and neither did my siblings. I still kept the diet, but I was secretly exercising. The only place where I could exercise in privet was the bathroom. So, every time I went to take a bath I would exercise. As a result I maintain my weight. Didn't gain didn't lose. Every time I went to the doctor they would say that I weighed the same. And secretly I was proud that I didn't gain anything, but deep down inside I hated the fact that was lying to my parents.
Let's carry on with this story another time shall we? In my nest blog, yes, indeed! I feel that I covered a lot in this blog.
I <3 God!
I forgot when exactly was the retreat I think maybe somewhere around February of 2010. While in the retreat, I remember it was there that I realized just how many true friends I had. Even with people, who I barely spoke with, they were praying for me. What I took from that experience was that I should never take friends for granted.
Right when I left the hospital, like in the same night, my family decided to over a friend's house to surprise them with me leaving the hospital. They told me to wait in the car while they went inside the house. The plan was that my farther would tell them that I was still in the hospital, then I would walk in the house and, well, surprise them! My twin sister went to use the bathroom, when I walked in the house. When they so me they thought I was Rebecca my twin sister. But then, all of a sudden my twin sister came behind me and hugged me, I hugged her back too. Instantly, they started freaking out. Big smiles and all :)
The hospital gave me a diet that I had to follow cause I still needed to gain a bit more weight. Needless to say I hated the diet. I felt so stuffed with food all the time. I tried not to make a big deal about it. I also didn't was to get all rebellious because then I would probably had to go back to the hospital. So I stuck to the diet. During this time I wasn't allowed to exercise, which was terrible! (I love exercising! ^_^ It makes me feel happy and studies have shown that it helps get rid of stress.)
I didn't want to gain anymore weight. So, I chose to exercise secretly. My parents didn't know about and neither did my siblings. I still kept the diet, but I was secretly exercising. The only place where I could exercise in privet was the bathroom. So, every time I went to take a bath I would exercise. As a result I maintain my weight. Didn't gain didn't lose. Every time I went to the doctor they would say that I weighed the same. And secretly I was proud that I didn't gain anything, but deep down inside I hated the fact that was lying to my parents.
Let's carry on with this story another time shall we? In my nest blog, yes, indeed! I feel that I covered a lot in this blog.
I <3 God!
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